Tag: Angst
2.473 billion to one by
When the Ori destroyed Earth, a secret evacuation had been going on for several months. A few hundred thousand people had been sent through the Stargate into the Pegasus galaxy, settling into new lives on different planets all around.
20 September by
It's just past midnight on 20 September, 2011, in the middle of the northern ocean on New Lantea II.
24 by
If you had 24 hours to live, would you sit back and accept it? Or fight it till your last breath?
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
5 people John Sheppard included in his will, and what he left to them by
A Different Rate of Conversion by WIP
What if Carson couldn't completely cure John from being a bug. More parts here: Part 2. Part 3, Part 4, Part 5,
Part 6, Part 7
A Fear of Falling Under by
Waking up with John still sleeping soundly in his arms, holding on to Cam, was what Cam was most thankful for this Thanksgiving. It wasn’t often that he woke up before John, Cam could count the number of times it had happened on one hand. So he stayed very still, and kept his breathing slow and even, so he didn’t wake his husband up. Part of This Delicate Thing We've Made
A Growing Connection by
(Prompt: Big Bang 2008. John is more Ancient than anyone realizes) With two new growing connections, can John Sheppard cope or will he give in?
A Healer's Touch by
He'd always wanted to be able to heal with a touch.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
A Knot Better Left Untied by
"Something's wrong with the Stargate. Our Stargate. We can't dial home."
A Lament For the Living by
I'm not really sure how to categorize this one. It's a Daniel Jackson/Ronon Dex pairing set in an apocha!fic where Earth is destroyed and a shipful of survivors makes it to Atlantis. On my own site I have it categorized as apocha!fic, hurt/comfort, romance
Thanks!
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A Little Misunderstanding by
Rodney is accused of raping John.
A Little Resurrection Every Time I Fall by
When Sam falls into Hell, Dean doesn’t go to Lisa, he goes to Vegas, because, well, it’s Vegas.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
A Long and winding Road by
John is Ronon and Teyla's slave. He's taking it better than they do.
A SGA Sentinel and Guide by
John is an unbounded Sentinel, Rodney is his destined Guide.
A Sappy Country Love Song by
John long ago made the decision it would be his life for Rodney’s
A Truth for a Truth by
Severe solitary confinement is a bitch. Ask John.
A Way Of Holding On by
John and Ronon give Rodney one last time with them before he fades away completely.
Lists: Threesomes and moresomes master list, Sheppard/Dex thematic fic index
Acknowledgment by
After saving the crew in the Puddle Jumper, Aiden copes with post-traumatic depression.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Actually, Love by
Four times John Sheppard and Bruce Wayne were not meant to be together, three times they were, and two times they lived happily ever after.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Addiction by
In a bleak and dangerous world, John and Cam find each other.
Adrift by
Carson gets abducted, John gets desperate. Angst and whumpage ensues.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Again by
When John was little, he dreamed of having wings and flying. He never realized that having one would mean losing the other.
Again and Again by
Set in the Burglary AU 'verse, a la Of Cops and Robbers. More detective!Cam and sort-of-thief! John here. Also, smut! Also also, it's about a serial killer, so prepare yourself for some weird serial killer factoids to pop up.
Age of Minority by
Cam finds that being turned into a teenager isn't what it's cracked up to be.
Airplanes and Shooting Stars by
Connor is, and John is, and together they are. Part of Being Connor Sheppard-Davies.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
All Good by
Sheppard has a Swiss cheese memory. Ronon wonders
why he's been forgotten.
Almost Free by
John Sheppard was almost free. But everyone knows, almost doesn't count.
Along Latitudes and Satellites by
Cam needs to stop going out into the field. He’s mostly retired, now, only on Atlantis because that’s where the rest of him is.
Amazing Grace by
After Sunday, Lorne finds some measure of comfort in Cam's arms. Part of the Breakaway AU.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
An unlikely turn of events by
John/Rodney established, John/Rodney/Lorne first time and ongoing (including (Rodney/Lorne & John/Lorne sex), mentions of past sex-only John/Rodney/Carson.
And Every Breath We Drew 'verse: Drabble Set The First by
Lists: McKay/Sheppard thematic fic index, Sheppard/Dex thematic fic index
And Hope by
While on a mission, John Sheppard discovers a device, but he doesn't expect what's inside.
And this the life I gave for you by
Late at night while much of Atlantis sleeps, Rodney brings his laptop to the control room and works, one eye on the Gate. Watching for Sheppard.
Another one, really? by
John gets hit on by another princess. Lorne decides it's time to cool things off with John.
Ardhanarishvara by
"Tell me, Colonel, did you take a look around and think, hey, it's the Planet of Sex Changes?"
As Deep Cries Out To Deep by
John Sheppard had served his country and just wanted to be left alone for the rest of his life. Too bad Rodney McKay had other ideas. So when John moves to Atlantis, at Rodney's behest, he discovers more than the City of the Ancients, he discovers Evan Lorne.
Ask Me No Questions, I’ll Tell You No Lies by
DADT is an issue John doesn’t want to talk about, but the IOA seems to have other ideas.
At The Hour When We Are Trembling by
The Wraith make it to Earth, and John and Daniel are left to pick up the pieces.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Atlantis Manifest by
Part of the Dark Muse series (chapters not linked within the story. Follow the tags instead).
Awakenings by
Rodney's the one who sleeps through the night, but not tonight...
Baby Boom by
"You’re pregnant and you didn’t plan on telling me? You wanted to get rid of it without ever letting me know I could have been a father? Don’t you think this should be my decision, too?"
Bad Day by
Rodney’s had a bad day " but luckily Carson is there to give him what he needs.
Balance by
'He had a stroke, John thinks as Sam leaves his quarters. Dad had a stroke, and he’s paralyzed, and Dave got the message to me.'
Batman's Brain by
John’s gonna die saving the world someday, and Rodney doesn’t approve.
Because That's All He Was by
John thinks he knows his Major. Does he?
Been Five Years by
It’s not often fate works for them instead of against them. Evan's planning on making the most of the one time it does.
Best Man for the Job by
John, unfortunately, really thinks he is the best man for the job.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Betrayal by
Prompts: Cam turning from the IOA so they think he's evil and he does evil to free (the ATA gene holders)… morally gray
Between the Darkness and the Light by
John is the guardian of the secrets of the Stargate, and Radek comes looking for them.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Blink by
I am going to tell you a story. About Dr. McKay and how he bought an eye from me, and how that one small act led to the strangest night in my entire life.
Blood In the Water by
Snippet adjunct to the Alpha Centauri series.
Bob, Steve, and Michael by
Sheppard's been naming the Wraith after his exes.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Bones in the Closet by
Part of the A Survivor series. Aliens make Evan prove his authority over John.
Breaking Clouds by
Sequel to Gray Skies Surround Me (preslash). John's first year on SG-5.
Breaking the Mold by
This wasn’t like he’d simply been turned into a girl. That might be a little cool, for a while. But just knowing this body wasn’t his, that it had an original owner, one that would be getting it back, made him nervous about how he treated this body.
Breathing Patterns by
John's injured and Cam blames himself.
Cardinal Directions by
Somebody somewhere had never seen a Lorne non-con. Here it be.
Cardiogenesis (The Heart of the Matter) by
It was the stupidest way to die in any galaxy.
Castles in the Air by
Even after all these years, he's still a little in awe that he can have this. Prequel: Sandcastles but read this first.
Catalyst by
(Entry f'locked) Really, there is something seriously wrong when the highlight of their respective days is a game of chess. The mere idea that the attraction lies in something other than the challenge of the game is something on which Rodney steadfastly refuses to dwell.
Catharsis by
A tag to Bluflamingo's Trick of the Light (Daniel/Jack/John).
Chance of a lifetime by
Being sent to recruit someone for the Atlantis expedition wasn't Rodney's idea of a good time.
Changed by
What would have happened to the Atlantis crew had Sheppard's condition in Conversion been contagious?
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Checking for a pulse, but I just don't know by
Dean’s sure that neither of them have been alright in a long time.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Chemicals Displaced by
Cam pines for Teal'c, John pines for Rodney, but they realize that they can find comfort together.
Clarity by
"You needed me." It's probably one of the most honest statements John has ever said.
Coming Up For Air by
Cam goes missing somewhere between Earth and another planet, and for John, this turns out to be his breaking point. Part of the Dysfunction Verse, but can stand on its own.
Comment fic - what happened after John talked to his brother at their father's funeral? by
Sequel to this comment fic. WARNING: Incest
Contamination by
John comes back from a particularly gruesome mission.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Contrails (comment fic) by
John and Cam both miss flying.
Copy by
John thinks that clone!Carson's memory might be a little fucked up.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Corridor in the light of a Wraith Stunner by
A meeting in a corridor.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Country Roads (Take Me Home) by
John goes, and comes, home.
Critical Mass: take 2 by
The Goaul'd inside Caldwell wants Sheppard.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Damaged Goods by
Ronon's immune to the wraith. Detective John Sheppard doesn't die in the Las Vegas desert. It would probably be easier if the opposites of both were true.
Darkness Comes by
Sequel to Captured. John and Carson are pitted against each other in an off-world training exercise once more, but when one goes missing, the other must rescue his lover from darkness.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Dawn Will Break by
When Atlantis - upon returning to the Pegasus Galaxy from Earth - breaks apart in hyperspace, only John is saved from the debris. The group of Ancients that retrieved him offer him a bargain: Either he helps them make corrections in some universes, where things have gone wrong, or they put him back where he was found. Reluctantly accepting, John embarks on a lonely journey through a multitude of universes until he finally reaches the place he could again call home.
Day at the Beach by
This is the first story in a series, which deals with themes of death and loss. Sequels to this story are listed in the fic.
Defract: Clear Blue Skies by
John Sheppard is obsessed with speed; it's only fair that he should have the shortest Ascension in all of history.
Deprivation by
Sheppard has a no-cross personal DMZ around him…until he doesn’t.
Deprivation by
Jack's losing his senses one by one and no one knows what to do or how to fix it. When he snaps, unable to deal with it any longer, Sheppard does what he can to comfort him.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Directional Theory by
Rodney does something stupid and pays with his heart.
Dis/Connect by
Taking another person's life wasn't what Rodney had signed up for.
Drawing Life by
Six years after Carson left Atlantis, John visits him in Scotland.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Dreams Are Never As They Seem by
It's the twentieth time that John Sheppard has found himself in a cell, but it's the first time that his faith in his inevitable rescue has failed him.
Dreams We Never Expected by
Cam's attempt to reach out to John after Sheppard Snr dies ends up going a little differently than he expected.
Dulce et Decorum est by
Aliens drug them and make them fuck each other. Cam doesn't remember, but John does.
Dutiful Son Series: Part 1; The Dutiful Son by
Part 1-2 is Sheppard/Sumner. Part 3-5 is Sheppard/Caldwell. Pt2: Losing Home, Pt3: Filling the Void, Part4: Avoidance, The Truth Unveiled. Daddy-kink.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Ecclesiastes by
When Cam comes home to find John sleeping on his couch, he has no idea what they're in for. AU from 'The Return' on.
Eight Takes on Cameron Mitchell, Air Force Officer in Exile by
An AU retelling of Continuum: eight perspectives on Cameron Mitchell during his first year in an alternate timeline. Remix of The Year That Was.
Epiphanies Aren't Just For Ancients (and Other Hard Learned Lessons) by
John Sheppard knows that sometimes, the quickest way to end a war is to lose it. But if he has to go down, he's taking Rodney with him.
Eternity in an Hour by
It could be the last time they see each other.
Exile by
Beginning of the Cabin series. Sequel: Reinstatement
Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by
John doesn’t know he’s looking for salvation until he finds it.
Falling Away by
John is dying, and all Cam can do is watch, until they're presented with another option.
Fever Dreams by
John rarely gets sick. Companion piece to What Weight We Bear.
Figuring It All Out by
When Lorne walks in by accident, Sheppard gets outted. When Lorne admits to the same, the question becomes how they will deal with each other now.
Finding Home by
Big Bang 2008. Forks in the Road: Reunion - Sam isn't the one that gets chosen as leader.
Finding Home by
John is a Slave who ends up the property of one Dr Rodney Mckay
Five Futures John Imagines With Cam by
Everyone has fantasies.
Five Times John Sheppard Has Sex With Someone Other Than Rodney McKay by
Folie a Deux by
It matters like a hole in the head, because that's what it is: a hole, a wound, a fissure. He can feel out the raw edges where his memories have been cut to pieces, the sudden blanks where the film breaks and he is left flailing on the edge of words.
Forever Home by
John and Rodney find themselves far from home, with people that don't know the Stargate.
Forget by
Atlantis is stuck on earth, John's been reassigned and his team is scattered to the wind. Lonely and depressed, he does what he can to forget.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Forgiven by
Part 3 of the Flight Cycle verse (Part 1, Part 2).
Getting It Right by
Carson wished he could just forget everything and spend an hour or two talking to John about simple things, like favourite colours, or food, or roller-coasters, but somehow, all they got to talk about was death and pain.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Gift of the Ancestors by
This isn't wise, but it's necessary.
Give 'Em Hell by
Aiden says goodbye to his lover in the midst of the siege on Atlantis.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Go West by
Even with John having left the Air Force and Cam being stationed abroad, their friendship has stayed as strong as ever. Then, one day, John gets a phone call he didn't expect.
Good Things Come to Those who Wait by
John thinks that Cam betrayed him back in Antarctica. Drama!
Green and White and Red by
Things like this aren't supposed to happen on Earth.
Guilty Until Proven by
Big Bang 2008. Forks in the Road: Outcast - John's brother Dave somehow becomes involved with the Replicators.
Hailing Frequencies Closed by
Reaching out is impossible if the person you are reaching for won't take your hand.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Heavy in Your Arms by
Atlantis was not the safe haven Evan Lorne had been expecting but there was someone there who was a haven all on his own.
Hell Is Empty by
Written for the prompt: AMTDI, but John fights so Mitchell has to rape him so they both don't get killed. Sequel is Turn the World on With Your Smile.
Here Every Language Is Silent by
Sometimes, you don't know what you have until it's gone.
Here With Me by
When he asked him to stay, sex really was the last thing on his mind.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Hey by
A day where being attacked by a flying monkey was the high point... That was a bad day. Even for Pegasus.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
History by
There's a part of John's past that no-one knows, but that he needs Cam to know about. Part of the What Happens Next verse.
Holiday Drabble by
Cam learns about John's private Christmas tradition.
Home In Time For Jeopardy by
Even the defeat of the Wraith and a bright future in the Pegasus galaxy doesn’t mean that the universe isn’t ultimately random and cruel. Or that love can’t be found in the ruins of your own life.
Home's a Lie by
Carson opts not to go back to Atlantis, and John realizes what he's lost.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
How It Is by WIP
Sheppard and his team have come through the Stargate to find themselves in Nottingham. Made guests of the castle, they slowly come to an understanding of how the Sheriff, with Sir Guy of Gisborne at his side, rules the realm. Despite this knowledge, there's an attraction between Sheppard and Gisborne that begins to grow. Crossover with BBC's Robin Hood (Sheppard/Gisborne).
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
How It Should Be by
Sequel to Shades of Punishment. After King Richard spares Gisborne's life, the group returns to Atlantis where the final judgement has yet to be passed. Crossover with BBC's Robin Hood (Sheppard/Gisborne).
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Hugging the Fleece by
John couldn't sleep while Rodney was in the infirmary.
I Am The Weapon by
Short John/Ronon centric episode tags for all SGA episodes starting with "Runner".
I Feel Your Pain by
Aliens make John feel all the accumulated pain of his team members.
I Have No Words: My Voice Is In My Sword by
John and Carson have some communication issues.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
I Would Like To Meet You All In Heaven by
Cam's an angel prince with a secret, John's a demon.
If I Could Start Again by
John is cheating on his wife with Rodney.
If We Make It Past The Judgement by
Atlantis needs Todd and Todd needs someone to feed on.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Imaginary Boys by
Mitchell and Sheppard get together during The Return, and if it wasn't impossible it'd be perfect.
In The Air by
Their first time is, almost predictably, in a Jumper. So is their second their third, and their fourth, because when Evan first approaches John he says no, I can’t, not in the City, and the Jumper isn’t the City, so Evan figures it doesn’t count.
In The Still Of The Night by
When two officers are attracted to each other, things don't always go smoothly.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
In the Blood by
"It really shouldn't be funny but you know I've always sort of suspected that we'd have a joint funeral."
Independence Day by
Evan takes John with him to see the fireworks.
Influences by
Ronon has to learn that being still doesn't always bring death, doesn't always mean he's given up, that and he has a hallucination or a ghost, he's not quite sure.
Inside by
This is what is going on in Sheppard's head while Thalan is controlling his body.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Integration by Parts by
Rodney breaks through Fortress Sheppard. With Math.
Interfice Errorem, Diligere Errantem by
Cam's been through something terrible. He's released into John's care, but was it too soon?
Into Dust by
Circling the chair, Cameron watches the Operator carefully. He's trying to discern any hint of recognition when he stops directly in front of the chair and says, his voice just short of steady, "John."
Into the Dark by
John lets himself be picked up by a stranger in a bar.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Inukshuk by
Another mission-gone-south isolates Rodney and John from the rest of the team. Forced to search for an Ancient outpost, they struggle to keep each other alive until the time their kidnappers prepare to sacrifice the one and purify the other.
It All Goes Away When The Sun Comes Up by
It's six months after the disease spread through Atlantis, crippling or killing everyone in the CIty, and Cam's more than ready to get out there to help.
It Was Easy... by
It was easy to fall apart... hard to put yourself back together.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
It's Lonely Where You Are (Come Back Down) by
John isn’t supposed to be there, but he is anyway. Eliciting promises shouldn’t take so much planning. (John/Castiel)
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
It's Not Always About The Sex... by
To quote the author: "Five men, five times, five different reasons. All of them justified."
Lists: Sheppard/Mitchell thematic fic index, Sheppard/Mitchell thematic fic index, Sheppard/Mitchell thematic fic index, Sheppard/Mitchell thematic fic index
It's Still A Symphony by
The List Of Things Cam Isn't Thinking About gets Cam into trouble sometimes.
It's You I'm Worried About by
Prompt: HC Bingo “Experiments by Evil Scientists”
It's a Small World After All by
FUBAR happens on Atlantis, John disappears, two years later Rodney takes a vacation to Disneyland, and who do you think is working at Soaring Over California?
Joy! 'Tis Christmas Morning by
Sequel: If Only In My Dreams.
Judas Doesn't Answer by
O'Neill and Woolsey arrive in Atlantis along with SG-1. Shortly thereafter, Sheppard and McKay find themselves in a race to catch a murderer.
Keep Going by
Sequel to Trick of the Light (which is Daniel/Jack/John).
Kill the lights and lock the door by
No kisses, but no lies either, Rodney thinks. He keeps telling himself there won’t be a next time.
Kiss Me Not by
Rodney waits for Sheppard’s return after Sheppard is taken by wraith worshippers
Knights in White Satin by
When Prince Radek's caravan is attacked by the Wraith, he's rescued by a mysterious mercenary who makes him rethink his future.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Last Kiss by
John can't do this any more. Part of the Dysfunction verse.
Last Man Reshuffle by
"He earned those stars. If you put them down like the nice little impostor you are, I won’t shoot you. Maybe."
Law of Martyrdom by
Post-season story. Rodney and Jennifer get engaged. The inevitable happens.
Lead The Way From All Is Lost by
Originally for an sga_kinkmeme fill: 'John/Cam, slave!John: the punishment for disobeying direct orders in the military is to be sold as a slave to successful officers until they learn to obey without questioning their superiors. John is given to Cameron, who takes his duty as officer very seriously and is set in teaching John what he needs to learn in order to be re-instated, whatever the price.'
Left Behind by
Dead: Rodney (also Beckett/Sheppard) (PG). Part of a series: Prequels: A Slow Dance, Resentment, Lessons Learned, Madness and Craving, Too Little Too Late (character death), and A Week of Emptiness (character death)
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Lessons Learned (The 7 Sins of Carson Beckett - Wrath) by
Prequels: A Slow Dance and Resentment, followed by Madness and Craving, Too Little Too Late (character death), A Week of Emptiness (character death), Left Behind (character death, also Beckett/Sheppard)
Life in Three Dimensions by
Sheppard/Mitchell -> Sheppard/Mitchell/Lorne
Lists: Sheppard/Mitchell thematic fic index, Sheppard/Mitchell thematic fic index
Lifted by
Something in John finally decides it's not worth waiting for any longer. Sequel: Alight
Limiter by
In a way, it's easier once Rodney's dating Jennifer.
Long Distance Call by
For the Twilight Zone challenge - Rodney's dead so how can he answer John's phone call?
Long Way Home by
Returning to Earth stirs up hidden yearnings and ghosts from Sheppard's past.
Lorne's Memoirs by
Lorne is held captive by a more advanced civilization who allows him to live out his days, but will not allow him to leave. He begins to write about Atlantis, but does so making specific "mistakes" hoping a story will get passed on somewhere an Atlantean will hear it.
Lost For Words by
Aiden is in a relationship with Teyla and John's with Rodney, but there are things that John needs from Aiden and Aiden alone.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Lost Memory by
It’s cold when he wakes and he feels around for the covers, freezing as his hand encounters empty space next to him where Rodney should be.
Lost Team Member by
While on a mission Major Lorne, loses a member of his team. He is having a hard time dealing with it and finds help from a friend.
Lost, Not Found by
Sequel to That Which Will Not Die. Continued in : Just Around This Bend.
Lover, Lay Down by
John's had a rough day. Ronon tries to make it better.
MSP20: Covenants of Flesh by
Part of Moments Sacred and Profane series.
Magnetism by
A trip through the Gate gone wrong leads John to evaluate just what his young Lieutenant means to him.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Making A Baby by
John and Cam try acting out a fantasy, but reality intrudes. Part of the What Happens Next series.
Medicate by
Sequel to Being A Girl. Just because Ronon's been turned back into a man doesn't mean that his problems are over.
Mediocre Passions by
John and David becomes friends. They both want more, but all is not easy sailing.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Memories of Afghanistan by
"This is wonderful news, John," Teyla says evenly. After studying John, she cocks her head to the side and adds, "So why is it you still appear unhappy?"
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Message in a Bottle by
They hadn’t planned on the world ending. Set shortly after the events of the Atlantis episode 5.22: 'Enemy at the Gate'. The world ends, people die, and Cam and John keep going.
Message in a Bottle by
John brought up the strangest things when they were having sex, but Rodney learned to just railroad past the weird and get to the good stuff.
Midnight Shakes the Memory by
Sheppard doesn't remember who he is, but he remembers Rodney.
Might as Well Live by
John was sure he was going to be re-assigned elsewhere...
Missing In/Action by
An AU John Sheppard married to Rodney McKay ends up in an alternate reality where John Sheppard's an enemy of the state. There is no way home. Part of the War Stories series.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Moments of Weakness by
Passion. Desire. Unbridled rage. All of those things could be used to describe the volatile relationship between Acastus Kolya and John Sheppard.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
My Favorite Colonel by
AU based on the Cary Grant/Irene Dunne 1940s classic movie, "My Favorite Wife."
My Time With Tiresias by
O'Neill doesn't like Sheppard. Daniel does; that's the problem.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Necessary Things by
They both know it's wrong, but justify it because they're only half-brothers (John/Dave incest).
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Necromancy for the Living by
How does John write a mission report about something no one wants to hear? Missing scene for Auburn's In the City of Seven Walls
Never Give In by
They had tried almost every trick in the book to break him.
Neverland by
Sequel to The Only One. Just because they're married doesn't mean that John's issues have magically disappeared.
Nightmares in the Darkness by
Sequel to Life Is Not A Dream. Evan has had enough.
Nights Like Tonight by
Part 3 of the Everything series. John hates nights like tonight.
No Good Deed by
Rodney makes a plan and waiting is the hard part.
No Longer All Right by
He can remember the times they used to stand side by side on the balconies, watching the weather, the sun, the rain, the clouds. Remix of And I say It's Alright
No Refunds or Exchanges by
Atlantis head scientist Rodney orders a mail-order bride. He gets ex-military pilot John instead.
Nobody's Hero by
"You stupid flyboy. Just have to risk your life at the slightest possibility. What is this, a deathwish? Are you out to kill yourself?"
Not Alone by
On missions when they had to stay a night off-world, Sheppard positioned himself like he was desperately trying to protect everyone, even in sleep.
Not Nothing by
John doesn't think of Atlantis right away, but hen he does, it seems like a good plan.
Nothing So Fragile by
Good intentions go awry and make things worse.
Of the Spotless Mind by
Amnesia fic heavily inspired by The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Once More With Feeling by
he's a genius. that doesn't mean he can't be stupid every once in a while
Orange Sky Kisses by
John knows how to turn the orange sky blue.
Out in the Open by
It's Situation Normal for the team when they're caught in an avalanche, but digging themselves out uncovers more than they counted on.
Paper Unicorns by
John tells himself, they'll come for us because the only other option is knowing that Cam can't take this much longer.
Paradigm Shift by
How did a sweet kid like Keller turn John into such a- Followed by: Three Weeks Later and Served Cold
Parallel, But Not the Same by
Sheppard learns first-hand that while two things may look identical, on closer examination those things are sometimes as opposite as two things can possibly be.
Parley by
John's got an eye-patch, and Cam's got a job offer.
Pay No Worship to the Garish Sun by
Atlantis has seceded. Things go bump in the night.
Piece by Piece by
John gets interrogated mentally by telepaths and is forced to relive some very personal moments of his life in the Pegasus galaxy. Rodney doesn't leave his side and tries to come up with a plan to free John.
Pilgrimage by
Carson's mom was what Rodney had pictured, both sweet and sour, with wide, smiling eyes and prone to express fond exasperation, just like her son.
Pinned Down by
He noted some of the things that John had done to him, very expertly, and on the principle that you give something on the lines of what you would like, he had noted the focus on lack of control, the vulnerability of the genitals and sensation to breaking point. Part 4 of the Desperate Tranquility series.
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Placebo by
"You might cut it off... Ronon has knives. You drilled into my head with a, a drill," Rodney said weakly.
Planet Claire by
"It has to do with a rare verb form, the real-universe optative mood. It's used only for things happening in the real universe."
Please Be Okay by
Twelve stupid hours, the gate would be offline. And all the while John Sheppard was coughing his lungs out thanks to some alien swamp virus.
Pocket Full of Kryptonite by
Big Bang 2008. Forks in the Road: Outcast - John goes back to Earth with Rodney instead of Ronon.
Polymorphs by
John wants Cam, but Cam is straight. Or, at least the Cam in this universe. It's just too bad that the other universe's Cam is a tad unstable.
Primal by WIP
Chapter two (not linked within story). Unfinished WiP.
Professional by
Jack's never had to fuck his boyfriend while pretending that he's not his boyfriend before.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Promises by
A year after John moved back to Earth to raise his son with Cam, things are mostly settling down for the three of them. Well, if you don't count childhood memories, estranged brothers, injured ex-colleagues and your best friend's wedding. Part of What Happens Next.
Push Until It Holds by
Ronon has known all his life that the three pillars of victory are honor, loyalty, and unity. He's been a member of Sheppard's team for two years when the team to which he owes his first loyalty finds him again, during a time when Ronon must question whether his loyalty to Atlantis is returned. Torn, he chooses the team he believes needs him the most, but the price is more than just the home he's come to love, and the reward may be betrayal and death, or worse.
Quiet Desperation by
Alien DNA had effectively severed every one of his ties with the humanity that had once embraced him. And there was nothing he could do about it.
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Quiet Halls by
Major Lorne has found himself in a abusive (hitting/rape)relationship, Col. Sheppard finds out. Can the Col save him (the man he secretly loves) or will he be lost.
Rainy Days by
When it's rainy and cold and he misses the halls of Atlantis and the way she'd turn up the heat for his morning shower; Rodney's POV: When the Rain Lets Up
Rebound by
John learned then that the most important rebound rule of all is: never get involved in with someone on the rebound if there’s any chance you might fall in love with that person.
Reckless by
You'd kill for me and die for me, but I just want you to live for me.
Recovering An Old Footing by
John, Cam and the original crew of the alternative reality drive equipped Daedalus are stranded in the wrong universe. John and Cam set out to find their way home.
Recurrence by
A visit to a new set of allies in the Pegasus Galaxy leaves John Sheppard and Rodney McKay struggling to overcome the effects of an alien device, while Evan Lorne and the other members of their teams try to help in any way they can.
Redux by
Just how many times has the Team had its memories wiped?
Regeneration (1/2) by
Part 2. Common Ground ends not with John and Todd parting ways, but with Todd taking John to his Queen.
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Remember When (It Was Together) by
It’s not until he’s thirty-five that he realizes there’s something seriously fucked up about him. It’s way too late to care, though, and beyond too late to do anything about it. John tries, though, just a little.
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Remote Control by
You can't stay in control of every situation. (Ford/Steve, Sheppard/Ford).
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Rescue by
John closes his eyes and lays his head back down and thinks that it would be nice if someone came looking for him.
Rescuing Rodney by
Rodney's not quite all there because of an accident with -- what else -- Ancient tech. John can't really do anything for him but wait. During the waiting comes the despair, writing and hoping.
Respite and Absolution by WIP
John needs someone to make decisions for him for a change, and Caldwell is willing to help.
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Retrace The Steps (As If We Forgot) by
John showed up at Cam’s doorstep about an hour after Cam had finally fallen asleep. Cam hadn’t seen John Sheppard in more years than he could remember, but that didn’t change the fact that he would do anything for him. So Cam stepped aside and ushered John in out of the night.
Revealing Truths by
John is forced to reveal certain truths, as are other key members of the expedition, when John looses his temper, and Rodney cops the fallout, before taking refuge with Lorne.
Rosemary, for Rememberance by
And then there was the time John Sheppard turned into a girl and no one thought it was strange but Rodney McKay.
Rounded with a Sleep by
Sixteen days ago, John died. So why is Rodney the only one who remembers it happening?
Rules are made to be broken, Hearts are made to be mended. by
Richard Woolsey finds out that sometimes life won't let you play by the rules and that breaking rules sometimes brings its own rewards.
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Sanguine (Blood on the Tide) by
John thought he was used to the dangers of Pegasus, but he never anticipated this.
Saturn Smile by
Cam's deep in denial, but John's there for him when he slips.
Saving the Universe by
Part of the Cabin series - part 3-ish
Second Chance by
Major Sheppard always wondered how his life would have turned out if he had only gone on the expedition to Atlantis instead of returning home at his father's request.
Second Chances Lost by
As far as John was concerned, a hail of gunfire ended Pegasus' last chance for peace.
Second Time Around by
Not everyone gets a second chance... Sort of coda to Second Chance but can be read stand alone.
Second Verse by
The Pegasus expedition needed Rodney McKay. They just didn't know it yet.
See Me, Feel Me by
Sixteen year old John runs into Cam at a traveling fair. Somehow, that makes it sound easier than it is.
Serendipity Lost by
“Did you know the weather’s always the same here? Absolutely perfect all the time.”
Shades of Punishment by
A year after he assisted Robin Hood and SGA-1 in the overthrow of the Sheriff and subsequently sought refuge on Atlantis, Guy of Gisborne " along with Sheppard and his team " returns to Nottingham only to be captured by King Richard's soldiers. Crossover with BBC's Robin Hood (Sheppard/Gisborne).
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Sholdn't by
John and Rodney make up for lost time in a porny way.
Shrapnel in his Skin by
He can't go to Teyla with this. And there's a hundred reasons why it can't be Lorne.
Lists: McKay/Sheppard thematic fic index, Threesomes and moresomes master list
Sing to Me by
John is about as broken as a person can be, but Cam's still fascinated by him.
Small Comfort by
John, with Ronon in tow, meets up with an old friend with connections he couldn't imagine.
Small Things by
Cam pretends it doesn't bother him, he pretends that it's not there, but John knows better.
Snakeheads: A Love Story by
Wherein John Sheppard is host to Mer'deth, a brilliant, arrogant, and not-entirely fearsome Goa'uld.
Solitary Man by
John never thought he’d actually meet someone as messed up as him. Apparently, he was dead wrong (John/Dean Winchester).
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Some After Effects Are Normal by
Remix of Side Effects May Vary.
Sometimes a Spark Is All You Need by
You think you'd know a man after 3.245 seconds.
Spaces In The Light by
Part of the Shadows'Verse. Follows directly after Lines In The Dark.
Staring at the Sun by
A look at the darwinian adaptations of sex pollen.
Stars Shining Bright Above You by
The closest he gets is in his dreams.
Start the Bidding At... by
John is captured by slavers and ends up spending two horrifying years as a slave before he's finally rescued.
Stay Out of Trouble by
Only John Sheppard could stumble into trouble in the most simple of circumstances.
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Still by
Remorse after a night of drunken sex and a mission in danger of going bad.
Stockholm Serenade by
Neither of them is who they used to be.
Stop the Bleeding by
John and Cam try to cope with the Atlantis expedition being kicked out by the Ancients.
Strangers When We Meet by
One day, a group of explorers from the city of the Ancestors arrive at Sateda. As military commander, it's Ronon Dex's job to deal with them.
Strength by
Rodney's in the infirmary after a mission gone bad.
Surrender By Conquest by WIP
Links to all chapters: HERE (not linked within story).
Syrup Dreams by
Written for the prompt: John/Todd, running into each other off-world, John ends up drugged. Todd bends him over something and fucks him, and John is watching him do it in a mirror, window, reflective surface. Dubcon/noncon - John's turned on, but everything's dreamlike and he doesn't really get that it's real.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
Taking A Plunge by
Almost drowning in a frozen lake gives a man time to think.
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Taking Comfort by
Part of the Virus Verse. Evan and John take comfort in each other.
Talking Points by
He managed to get out a raspy, "Congrats." It was the last word he spoke for months.
The Air That Angels Breathe by
Mutant!Verse. John has hid his mutation all of his life and then everything changes in an instant.
The Bribe by
Rodney given to John as a slave and they're on their way to Atlantis.
The Chair by
Sitting in the Chair changes more things than John would have thought.
The Complement of Hell by
Life goes on after your military boyfriend breaks up with you. Sort of.
The Deconstruction of Falling Stars by
Atlantis is stranded in a strange new galaxy with no way of returning to either Earth or Pegasus, John is missing and presumed dead, and just when Cam thinks that he's finally getting used to the status quo, things get worse.
The End of the World as We Know It by
John Sheppard lived in a small house by the end of the world, which is just a few miles to the south of the left end of the rainbow. It was a solitary life, the house surrounded by nothing but long grass and wild flowers and a few trees in the distance... and, of course, the sheer cliff dropping straight down into infinity about fifteen feet from the back door.
The Enemy Within by
John is captured by the Wraith and experimented on.
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The Fallen by
John and Ronon have a talk in the aftermath of 'Broken Ties'.
The Fourteenth of Green by
It has been three weeks. Rodney marks another line on the wall. These ones are in red, a clean break to mark the days without John.
The Fourth Part of the Night by
But he knows that for six days, fifteen hours, nine minutes and an eternity of seconds, John is a couple of hundred yards and a solid wall of metal and marble away from them, from him.
The Gravity of Tempered Grace by
Cam decides he’s done being alone and he wants to be done being alone with John.
The Greatest Compliment by
God forbid John would make things easy and ask for what he needs.
The Haunting of Carson Beckett (Prequel) by
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7
The Innocent's Dark Seduction by
"Pregnant? Yes," Rodney snarled. "Now that Dave's devious plan has worked, you know about it. Yes, it's yours. No, you don't have to have anything to do with it... her......"
The Johnny Cash Variations by
Colonel Cameron Mitchell, USAF (Ret.) and current sheriff of Esmeralda County, Nevada, has a routine.
The Journey Home: John's Story by
Rodney protests John's discharge after "The Return" by quitting SGC and going back to Earth with him.
The Kids Are Alright by
Big Bang 2008. Forks in the Road: Outcast - John goes back to Earth with Rodney in addition to Ronon.
The Long Engagement by
McShep Steampunk!Atlantis AU. John is the leader of the Sheppard Circus Company. Lost in their travels, the troupe happens on the hidden city of Atlantis where McKay is the mistrustful leader of the Lanteans. McKay makes an agreement with the troupe wherein they'll stay on in the city and perform a number of shows. He also asks John for his adopted sister, Jennifer Keller's, hand in marriage. When John refuses to give them his blessing, Rodney proposes that the only way to change his mind is to get to know each other better. But as the two men become close, Rodney begins to question if marrying Jennifer is what he really wants or if what he wants could be something totally unexpected.
The Measure of Your Touch by
Either Cam is going crazy, or John is really a ghost (or something like it).
The Ones That Break You by
An altercation with another military officer brings up Lorne's painful history of coming out to his family. Sheppard tries to help, but he can barely get Lorne to speak about it. Sequel to Breathing Room.
The Pay is Certain (One Way or Another) by
Cam receives a crushing blow.
The Sacrificial Mage by
Magic was a zero-sum game. If you didn't sacrifice as much as you were given, you would lose.
The Sea's Evaporated, Though It Comes As No Surprise by
Sequel: These Clouds We're Seeing, They're Explosions In The Sky
Lists:
The Secret on Your Lips That Nobody Knows by
Teenage boys...
The Sorcerer King by
In a time of magic, when Prince John mounts a rescue to save his family's oldest friend, he discovers more than just an ally in the sorcerer, Rodney McKay, as they seek to overthrow the Wraith Queen of Atlantis.
The Third Time by
Alien women like John. Evil Alien women really, really like Daniel.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
The Year That Was by
Cam's never really been lonely, or felt abandoned. Not until he winds up in a whole new timeline with no way home.
The Years of Silence by
Sam, John and Cam met in high school and became friends.
The silence of the stars and of the sea by
Rodney threatens to go back to Earth. John will do anything to make him stay, and Rodney's not above taking advantage.
Then And Now by
As he contemplates the actions being taken to find the spy in their midst, Aiden remembers a very different Sergeant Bates.
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There Is A Crack In Everything by
John and Ronon have their own way of working things out.
These Pages are Burning by
This Wraith queen was different....
Thin Thread Left by
People talk about this as a victory, but to John it feels like defeat; the end of their first decade in the city
Thousandmother by
A run-in with the Wraith results in the Team being separated and stranded on a cold, harsh planet without help or supplies. As they struggle to survive and find each other, the Team discovers a new alien race and secrets that the Ancients left behind. Including a secret about Ascension that neither the Ancients nor the Ori want anyone to know.
AU sometime after Season 3's Common Ground.
Throwing out your frown and just smiling at the sound by
John is always careful. After all these years it’s second nature, something he does without thinking and never lets himself forget. They never talk about it, there’s no need to.
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To Be With You by
John and Cam are the pleasure slaves of Jack O'Neill, but they are unwisely falling in love with each other. A little AU of John and Cam from the Telpa ‘verse AU.
To Feel Whole Again by
Written for the kink meme prompt: Cameron is a rich, married district attorney and John is his dirty little secret.
To Make A Long Night Shorter by
For John, watching Ford recover was worse than watching him kill himself with that damn enzyme. Thank god he had someone to go home to at night.
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To Saveguard the Future by
Beware of Ancients bearing gifts.
To Serve And Protect by
John Sheppard/Elizabeth Weir, Rodney McKay/John Sheppard, implied John Sheppard/everybody
Right or wrong, things had always been the way they were, the intelligentsia ruling and the military serving.
Together Again by WIP
Marine Sergeant Dean Winchester-O'Neill finds himself on Atlantis.
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Together, Alone by
After Carson's funeral, Lorne finds comfort in an unexpected place (Dex/Lorne/Sheppard, Dex/Sheppard est. relationship).
Lists: Threesomes and moresomes master list, Sheppard/Dex thematic fic index
Topography or, Five Places John Wants to Kiss Rodney by
What the title says...
Transcendental by
In less than a day, Rodney had blown past Elizabeth, Colonel Sumner, Colonel Markham, Colonel Escobar, and was rapidly coming up on Colonel Ryers as the absolute worst commanding officer John had ever had to report to.
Traveller's Debt (Uncertainty Reprise) by
Original version of Traveller's Debt
Tremblor by
It's not that you haven't been held at gunpoint before.
Trinity's Fall by
Rodney thinks he's tried hard enough by now.
Trope by
So there were these aliens, and they made them do it. And then there was obliviousness.
Trouble by
"I told you I was trouble, You know that I'm no good"
True Peace by
Rodney waits and fears that the next letter will notify him of John's death.
Two Halves Don't Make a Whole by
Evan Lorne wishes he'd never even heard of the Stargate program, let alone a mythic ancient city in another galaxy.
Under His Wing by
McKay persuades Lorne to give this thing with Sheppard a chance. Part of the sub!John - A Survivor series.
Unexpected by
Teyla understand that John feels lonely sometimes. She and Cam makes him feel better.
Unnamed Comment Fic by
"And fighting time so hard I pray
that this moment lasts forever.
And will the world stay standing still at least for me.
Through my eyes stare into me.
I bear my heart for all to see.
With my face turned to the sun there ever standing still."
Unnamed Comment Fic by
Do you want the truth or something beautiful?
Just close your eyes and make believe
"Do you want the truth or something beautiful?
I am happy to deceive you
Sacred lies and telling tales
I can be who you want me to be
But do you want me? "
Unnamed Comment Fic by
"What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you"
Unnamed Comment Fic: Adultery by
Written for the kink meme prompt: Vegas!verse. Cameron is a rich, married district attorney and John is his dirty little secret.
Unnamed Comment Fic: Dealing With Grief by
Shared grief.
Unnamed Comment Fic: Silence by
Prompt: John/any male, silent sex.
Unnamed tag to "See Me, Feel Me" by
After See Me, Feel Me John goes to Cam for some comfort.
Unsaid by
Four times they didn't actually say I love you (but meant it) and one time they did.
Unspoken by
John tries too hard to make the right choices.
Until it's All You're Holding on Too by
After tragedy strikes, Rodney's friends watch as he tries to do everything in his power to find a way to set things right. Sometimes the lengths Rodney McKay would go to on behalf of John Sheppard amazed even him; especially when those lengths included not being able to tell a single person about what he'd done.
Untitled ficlet by
Evan stakes his claim by bending John over a table in the mess.
Waiting for My Real Life to Begin by
Rodney turns 40, dates Jennifer, kisses John and finds an Ancient weapons lab. Sequel: A Month Of
Waiting to Believe by
John doesn't want to go to his unit's reunion.
Walk Across Water by
Finding each other when the battle is over.
War Widows by
John/Cam in Atlantis, some mission-gone-wrong whump, and a happy ending.
Wash Me Away by
Elizabeth takes a deep breath and says, “I’m sorry, John, your father passed away two days ago.”
Watch the Man by
McKay/Sheppard, unrequited McKay/Sheppard/Beckett.
We All Fall Down by
Part 12 of Strange Aeon. Lorne encounters a piece of ancient tech with embarrassing results. Cam is even less lucky with his mission.
Lists: Sheppard/Lorne thematic fic index, Sheppard/Mitchell thematic fic index
We Make a Sky Where We May Be by
John Sheppard doesn't believe in second chances, but it's possible that he might get one in Atlantis anyway.
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Weighty Ghost by
Written for hc_bingo prompt "Sensory Deprivation."
What Doesn't Kill You by WIP
What If I Told You by
John and Cameron comfort each other.
What It's Made by
Ronon has been on tour with the Satedan acting troupe for months. His friends celebrate his return with a party.
What Once Was Lost by
John's first night back on Atlantis after having been abducted.
What Weight We Bear by
Companion piece to Fever Dreams. John’s good enough at hiding it that almost nobody knows.
What the doctor would have ordered by
Rodney takes Carson's death very hard.
Whatever's Left by
John and Cam share a beer on the pier.
When God Left the Ground by
Ronon thought his world had ended in the outbreaks, but then he was sent to Atlantis Academy.
When Your Story Is Untold by
When it's "game over" for John, no one will know to tell Cam a thing.
When you know you were born to fly by
John is a commercial pilot, Rodney is a difficult passenger.
Where The Heart Is by
Aiden tells John what he experienced on the mist planet.
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Where to Go from Here by
Part of the Moving Forwards series.
White Lies by
Rodney and Ronon exchange lies and truths on the Wraith ship. Rodney loses track of which is which.
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With These Wings, I- by
Rodney (is a sex god) simply can't afford to sleep with John Sheppard.
With Wings Spread Wide by
The SGC invites Teyla and Ronon to visit Earth. Cam seems intent on showing them the sights. Including the dragons.
Words by
Cam's mother comes for a visit. Part of This Delicate Thing We've Made.
World Without End by
There’s still a part of him that thinks, in some messed up backwards way, that they could be good, here, in the middle of a disaster that they can’t stop.
You Belong With Me by
John Sheppard and Darcy O'Neill have strong feelings for each other, but must surpress them due to both being in the USAF. When a machine is discovered off world everything changes for both men.
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You Can't Always Get What You Want by
It was so much easier keeping work and personal separate when there was an entire galaxy between them.
Lists: Rare pairings slash index
You Know You're No Better by
John Sheppard is a Sentinel, Evan is his Guide, and Ronon is his Lover.
Lists: Threesomes and moresomes master list, Sheppard/Dex thematic fic index
You Saved Me by
Evan is in a abusive relationship and John finds out and saves him.
Your Reward is Neither Here Nor There by
Very dark, read warnings on author's site.
Zombies and Blackouts -- Oh My by
Sometimes the Pegasus galaxy was the ultimate horror show, the fright never ended.
a hub for the wheeled universe by
John's trapped under tons of rubble, his only lifeline Rondey's voice on his radio. Sequel: The Morning Romanza and each hour of the twenty-four
he alone determines by
Half-way through the celebration feast (there seemed to be one every three planets, now) a group of masked raiders had attacked the village.
life not a dream by
Gene carriers are bound together, which would usually work if you didn't hate your bondmate.
